stabbed right in the heart

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it hurts. it really hurts.

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you have brought me up
for that i respect you
and try to fulfil your wishes
to the best that i can

but there comes a time
that i need to make
important choices for myself
but why wun u understand

throughtout my life
i had tried my very best
to put myself in others shoes
and put them first
make decisions benefitting others
even at the expense of myself
so that majority if not all
will be fine and happy

that was always my belief
in treating others

but to hear such words
that negate that very belief
is shocking jolting unexpectable
you make me feel that
i ahve always let you down
always doing things to hurt you

it really plunges a knife
straight into my heart
shattering my beliefs
condemning my world to damnation

it hurts. it really hurts.
nothing hurts more than
to hear such things
from your closest ones

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